Reminisce..

..and today, is my beloved birthday.yey.I'm 14.(haha.. I don't think I have much energy left to feel good..)
Wow. 14 years of living on earth.

Like what I usually do during my birthday, I went to church and heard mass.Today, I felt anger at the priest. (judging.. sorry..) I don't think he was even prepared for the mass himself. I mean, even my dad noticed it.. He didn't even wear socks.. slippers lang man.. And the thing that I hated most about him, was that he looked awfully sleepy. ^*!#. At di sya nag.homily. For crying out loud.. he could have at least made his reading of the Gospel a bit clearer.

Hmm.. nagiging religious ako more and more, as each day passes by. I realized that God is alive.. in me.. and He loves me, so much. He loves you, too.. whoever you are. And when everything fails, He'll be the only one who'll never stop loving you.Though, I admit, I do have doubts, still. But faith.. it keeps me believing.
But I am not yet devoted to Him. That, I know.

I am afraid. Afraid that the greatest blessing that God has yet given me, would be my greatest sacrifice.. sooner or later..And giving her up would be difficult. Far too difficult for me.

So.. going back..

I basically reminisced my 14 years of living a while ago, at the church..Haha.. My first rollercoaster ride.. I remember that! Fieldtrip namin nun.. grade1.. tapos since yung teacher namin ay may heart attack, di sha sumakay.Haha.. My first birthday.. naalala ko.. (may video nito, kaya alam ko.. hehe..) yung white shirt na gift ng ninong ko ay tinapon ko sa floor. Siguro di ko nagustuhan. Pinulot ng mom ko, inabot sa kin, at tinapon ko ulit!! hahaha! Haha.. My first 'bestfriend'.. Sarah Jane.. haha.. karibal ko yan sa first crush ko.. haay GVS.. how I miss you.. naalala ko pa, dati may 'code of honor' kami dun. Walang 'Alma Mater song'.lHaha.. syempre ang Holy.. the school that truly built up my personality and being. (woohoo!! now I know who to blame! haha!!) Haay.. mga sobrang memorable na tao..*Sarah - ang aking unang bespren *Irene - bespren ko, kahit magkalayo may communication pa rin kami. kewl.*Herald - potek sa yaman na kid.. moral na lang, p're. siguro naman nagbago ka na.. 'akin na lang yung silver crayon mo!' haha..*Ged - ang dakilang taga. lagay ng ipis sa desk ko nung grade1 *Hss'03 - lalo na sa Daisy03, Gladiola03, Zinnia03, Dahlia03, Cattleya03.. at sa mga teachers dun na pinagalitan, pinuri o kinaibigan ako.. *Dorklene - si bespren Dar na sobrang mcdo ko.. ang korni nito.. love ko to! woohoo.. *Uyvico - haha.. ang dakila kong kras na sobrang . . . uh.. basta. (hehe.. di mo naman mababasa to.. siguro) *(ate) Bebes - gud prend ko na sobrang nanjan lagi.. ang pretend 'ate' ko. *J.M.L.dc. - ang presidente ng grade6 class namin na 'hearttrob' at kras ko noon. galit sa kin ang ibang tao dahil lagi kaming magkasama. *Koko - ang forever na valedictorian ng HSS'03. *Gam - ang nagturo sa kin kung paano maadik sa pagmmall at paggimmick wherever. *Nikkitong - naging bespren ko na sobrang kulit. artistic pa. kewl ang family nya. wala lang. *Mics - kaibigan kong sasamahan ako kahit gabing gabi na sa kung saan. keeping me safe, tol? *TikZ - haha.. tiks.. tutor mo pa rin ako? *Marck - salamat at sorry. *Cero - 'ulol'. *Domo - constellations man. hahaha.. *Pito - 'ahihihihi'.. hahha.. wala lang. *Sir Luy - wala lang. naalala ko lang kayo.. ang art1 teacher namin. salamat sa mga ideas and opportunities na binigay mo sa kin. *lahat ng teachers ko sa Pisay - uh.. salamat. sa mga mukhang cartoon, sa mukhang stressed na kailangan ng stress tabs, at iba pa.. *Opal 07 - da best pa rin. *Li - salamat sa lahat! ang bespren kong otti, hartrab, at tawa nang tawa.. pero pag na.down.. shucks.. *Janel - pareh! *Rai - aliens! woosh! hahaha.. *Mithi - wala lang. basta naaalala kita. salamat na rin. *(kuya) Oyayi - ang 04 kong kras na hindi ko maintindaihan kung bakit kumakalat sa Pisay ngayon. at ngayon pa lang ha..? wala na yun.. *Kimmy - brawnis. Hanep magtravel.. parang model! *la-04 pipol - miss you guys.! *Tanglaw pipol - salamat po. kewl yung jamming sessions.. kahit hindi hard rock.. ok na rin. *Kat - Movie partner! so.. next movie..? 'kuya Yo.. paki drop off na lang yung owner ng car sa may mcdo.. uh.. hey car owner, name mo ulit?' haha.. *KJ - salamat sa pagsubok na irecruit ako sa basketball varsity.. pero mukhang hindi ko place yun.. though gusto ko ng jersey! haha.. gulo.. *Adelfa07 - haha.. honorary member nyo ko.. 'extenson' kung baga.. haha.. ang pangalawa kong 'section' sa 2nd year. *Camia07 - though para sa kin mostly gghn lang ang nangyayayri.. pero ok pa rin kayo.. tayo. *(ate) Xoi - mk pala. mcdo. (haha.. ano..?) yung hug ko, dude! *Myj - wrestling.. ano? haha.. *Karj - wrestling din.. haha.. taek naman.. ang amazing kong brother *'rentz - shempre. duh. *mga tao sa bahay - shempre. duh. *actually, lahat ng mga nakilala ko.. sorry kung di kita nabanggit.. siguro magpasalamat ka na lang na di ka nabanggit sa 'lol kong blog.

Teka teka.. di pa ko mamamatay.. (ippost ko pa to..) Pero ewan.. napag.tripan ko lang na banggitin ang ilang mga tao.. kasi.. wala lang.. banagag ako.Next time yung iba naman.Pramis yan.Cross your own hearts, people. haha.. labo man..

See? Hanep ako magreminisce.. mula sa mga firsts pa..Ayoko na, next time ko na lang itutuloy..

O, present naman..

Xoi.. anong meron? bangag ka lang ba talaga? (man..) seryoso.. nakakaworry ka.. or siguro masyado ko lang sineseryoso ang lahat ng sinasabi mo..

sino ka daw.. sabi nung mga nakakakita sa kin na sinusulat na lang bigla ang pangalang 'xoi' sa tissue, sa kamay, sa notebook, saan pa ba.. basta ganun..
Ang pangit.. ang bilis ng oras, ng panahon. 3rd quarter na (shucks book report..).And soon.. you'll have to graduate (dude..). But then I realized na naiintindihan ko. I can't do anything much about whatever that's happening now. What if you never met me? Perhaps you wouldn't be in this thing.. never felt the pain that you said you did.. never wasted so many hours on strolling around with a kid. I made your life bad.. sorry..*hug* virtual na naman?
I dunno how I can be so sure of this.. but I guess it's real.09.12152205.251521.

Pero what if di kita nakilala.? Maybe it would be so hard for me to look at the bright side of life.. lalo na ang second year life.. I wouldn't be this happy.. this thankful. I have never felt so blessed in my life. Then you brightened up everything. Thanks. For absolutely everything.

Last Sunday, (241004) haha.. weird as it seems.. I felt like I was floating.. masaya lang talaga..

Ewan.

Dar.. Thanks for giving me my energy back. Shucks.. kaw talaga ang ultimate pang.gising ko..

...At marami kaming homework. Siguro dapat na akong magsimula. haha.. Crammer talaga ako. By heart. Pero kailangan ko ring magbago.

Yey. Happy Birthday to me.

kid na kid at heart..,
-+reish.251004.