Chemical X.

This is not good.. I think I have sprained my right upper limb.. from my hand to my elbow.. It hurts. How can I play basketball with a sprained arm.?

Haha.. Uhh.. too bad..

There simply are one.way roads that someone may pass along the journey. One.way roads.. you just can't go back the way you came in.

Solution.? Look for a U-turn slot somewhere.. then go back through another road. Hard-to-find U-turn slots for intricate roads.

What if you're not good at driving.? How would you make the turn.? Will you cause traffic.? An accident.? Or would you rather go on and skip the stressful turn.?

What if the road that you chose leads to a dead end.? What'll happen next.?

Confidence is needed.. and everybody can learn how to drive well.

Love, it is nothing that's impossible to exist. If it's there, it's there. If you feel it, you feel it. And feelings, they don't exist because you want them to, they exist because they just do.

Any selfish (hidden or not) motives at any corner.? Think about it. Deep.

Things don't happen because you want them to.

Why do people keep on disowning themselves.? Why can't we just accept what reality contains.? Why is it that some people choose to live within the walls of lies and illusions.?

All of my everything.. what are they for.? Where will they lead me.?

All this pain and suffocation.. why are we supposed to feel stuff.? Mixed up thoughts.

Would it really matter if something appears to be right or wrong.? How would you know if it is such.?

Is it just to say 'majority wins'.?

Today, I would want to say sorry for the walls, tables, chairs and other properties that I have vandalized in the past. (Yes, I admit it.)

Haha.. what has gotten into me.??

I realized that as humans, our imperfections include the sudden loss of respect moments in our daily lives. We (at least from my view) lose our respect to others, to their efforts, labor and sacrifice, thus, isn't this humiliation to human kind.? It's a shame that our nature includes that character. We lower ourselves down.

Vandalizing can be a way of self-expression to some (that list includes me ;P) but to the real owners of the vandalized thing, it's disrespect. Conscience.. it's getting to me.. haha..

So from this moment on, I swear to TRY to resist the temptations of vandalizing another property that does not fully belong to me. I will TRY not to use very clean (no vandal. type) desks so as to resist temptation more. :-)

Haha.. :-) Is this ME.?

Red clouds and lightning. Ignite my senses, my soul, my spirit, my mind.

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