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bangag ako ngayon.

A while ago, my mom took me to the doctor. haha.. this kid is uhm.. sick (?).. at least they think so..
I don't agree with what the thermometer suggests.. i don't really feel sick or anything.. just.. crazy.. (english ng bangag..?) .. haha.. woohoo..! hyper..
pero panget, walang ibang bangag dito sa bahay.. so kailangan ko na shang ishare sa blog ko.. i love you blog.. (blog: i love you too..) haha.. ooohhh... cool.. blog with feelings.. talk to me, blog.. talk.. talk.. TALK!
teka.. DONT talk. i'll freak out so bad i'd die. haha.. seriously. haha.. ang labo ko talaga.. binawi ko rin yung talk talk talk part.. hahaha..

anyway.. going back..
soo..
my mom took me to the pedia (kid! kid! til 18 ang pedia d ba.?) and what did i get?
hmm.. 3 sheets ng doctor's paper.. thingy.. (dunno what to call that piece of paper..) na puno ng nirereseta niyang gamot..
man..
i am THAT sick??? woah.. at the least 6 different medicines yun..but i'm not really required to take them. well, at least not all of them. (phew! good thing..)
ngayon lang nalaman ng mom ko na 4days na kong may sakit.. hahah.. d ko sila sinasabihan when i feel, or am, sick. pagbabawalan nila ako sa maraming bagay. at ako ay makulit.

and you know what? dude even scared me at school.. told me about how scary doctors are.. saws.. mirrors to see yourself die in terror and pain..
so i thought of asking my mom not to go.. but she scolded me and told me that i should..
and then when i got there, at the clinic, the doctor.. she was preparing her tools.. made each and every piece of me shiver.. 'i can't believe my own mom brought me here.. how could she do this to me?!', i thought.
but after the check-up and long talks and chit.chats.. everything was ok.
i even took home lollipop.
maybe i should go to the doctor more often.. then next week i'll ask her for a balloon.. then next next week, a ute little stuff toy..
i'll be a good girl so that the doctor would give me sweets again.. *yum!!
hahahahaha.. bangag nga ako.. watastori.. joke lang yun. 70% barbero. hahaha.. hair.. it's covering my face.. like slow spinning redemption.. blocking in, blocking out..
uuuiii!!! epileptic drummers! haha. wala lang..
tapos eto pa..
ang tubig hindi yan basa. nagpapabasa lang.
(tama ba yung naaalala kong sinabi mo, dude?)
wala lang.. onga..
wala lang..

tapos.. yung 'dude'.. uhh.. i think i only use it for 241509..
ewan.. i dont call other people 'dude'..
haha.. wala lang..

tapos.. mahirap talagang kumanta pag may colds ka. potek.. para akong pumipiyok.. haha.. sabi tuloy sa group namina.. 'parang may tumataas na tono sa inyo..'.. or somethin like that. ;P
at mas mahirap ang mag.long test (lalo na pag feel na feel mo na yung proving part.. yung tipong mahal mo na ang geom dahil nakakapag.prove ka..) ..pag may runny (or running? ano ba? whatever..) nose ka.
haha.. wala lang..

TANONG: sino ang may.ari ng liwanag ng bituin??
haha.. SAGOT: si Ningning.
'sa langit sumilay ang isang bituin.. liwanag nito'y kay Ningning..'
hahha.. *patawarin ang korni..
**pasalamat ka, jao.. ako pa humihingi ng tawad para sa yo.. haha.. joke niya yun eh, sinespread ko lang :D

wag mo na akong pilitin.. ako ay walang lakas ng loob para tumanggi.. walang dapat ipag.taka.. ako ay pinanganak na torpe, dyan sa tabi.tabi.. pasensiya na..
haha.. wala lang.. aliw yung song..

LINE OF THE DAY: ang cute ng sky!
haha.. wala lang..
teka.. dapat pala 'wala lang'.. kasi sobrang gasgas na yung expression/line na yan..
oh well, CUTE ANG SKY! haha..

STATUS: now zooming in to the painful claws of frustration..
. . . reading . . . completed.
(with comp sound effects yun ha..)

when my mom and i were walking outside a while ago, we passed by some guy who was playing the guitar.
know what?
he was cruel. his fingers were cruel.
he was playing really good.. and to think na sobrang naimpress ako sa plucking nya.. bilis eh.. palipat.lipat lang ng iba't ibang chords.. bilis man.. (though i really have seen a lot who's a hel lot better than that guy.. but i'm talking about today anyway..)
he made me remember how i have abandoned my guitar and my love of playing it.. have i really thrown away my dreams? wanna be in a band someday.. and someday, is not yet today. (haha.. kimmy..)
but seriously, ganun nga ang nangyari.. impressing.. pero nakakalungkot isipin na madali pala akong nag.give up.. na sobrang nafrustrate lang ako one day and poof! i didn't want to play the guitar ever again..
i think the last time na tumugtog ako (hindi yung tugtog na trips lang and putol yung kanta, or my so-called 'inventory' lang.. tugtog talaga..) ay nung 1st quarter presentation pa namin sa Music..
anong kanta ba nga ba yun? happy ending? eh nagkaroon lang ako nung copy nung chords nung mismong presentation day.. haha.. i learn fast. (windy.. konti lang..) at least nagawa ko sha ng buo.. but i felt down na hirap ako sa bar.. waw..
tapos d pa kumakanta lahat sa group, so nakakawalang.gana.. pero ok lang.. tuloy lang.. then the presentation ended..
d ko maalala exactly when i decided to give it up (if i REALLY did).. many thoughts came in blurting themselves into my mind.. haha..
and now, i wonder each and every morning about what happened to the guitar-loving krishna.. haha.. may routine ako, wake up, be a bed potato (may couch potato naman eh) for a few minutes, magpray, mag.good morning kay 0301191925, go to the 'room of the closets', sit on the drafting table (sorry dad..) then stare at my guitar - just there, hanging on the wall where i placed it.
aww.. poor guitar.. lonely.. there.. just there..
at nagulat ako yesterday.. akalain ko bang HINGIIN sa kin ni jericho yung guitar ko?? meron na sha eh.. potek.. haha.. pero joke lang naman yata yun.. 'krishna.. ginagamit mo pa ba yung guitar mo? sira? akin na lang yun!' (note: could have been rephrased.)
haha.. i won't give it to anybody.. nor is it broken..
haha.. beloved guitar.. hinahanap ko na lang ang inspiration.. tutugtugin din kita.. kinoconvince ko pa ang sarili ko na tanggaping di pa talaga ako pro, but i will be if i try hard enough.. ke fast or slow learner man to.. whatever happens.. babalikan kita!
haha.. ang drama.. pero seryoso.. panget kasi.. it's my pride that's keeping me away from doing things all over again..
tsk tsk.

STATUS: now cancelling frustrated mode . . . completed.

haha.. yeah..
oi cute yung 'sinta'.. sugarfree.. pero mushy sha.. medyo.. pero ok lang.. nakakalanggam.. ng konti..reminds me of 241509.. highly applicable.. para sakin.. i think.. haha..
'ako'y isang malungkot na bata.. ... madalas akong (o ako'y??) madulas.. buti na lang nandyan ka, buti na lang nandyan ka, sinta.. paano na lang ako kung wala ka? paano na lang ako kung wala ka, sinta?? . . .'
wala lang.. cute ang sky..

onga pala.. puros praktis lang kami halos nmgayong araw na to para sa paskorus/paskorito.. haha..
ang pangit ng line na inuulit.ulit namin.. '..ay sumilang.. teka.. ulit.. sumilang.. sumilang..'
potek.. reminding mia and i (mau kasama ka na rin) of our 'holy' days.. haha.. days sa Holy.. la lang.. (oh alma mater kind and dear we sing your praises, far and near, at home, at school on land and sea, the thought of you is dear to me.. uh.. mamaya ko na itutuloy..)
..so.. going back.. pinapaalala lang sa min nyan ang h.e.l.e. teacher namin noon.. si Mrs. sumilang.. and she, let's just say that she's not our favorite teacher. haha.. ang labo din nya mag.grade.. d ko makakalimutan ang 86 na binigay niya noon (pero sa art yun).. panira.. eh wala naman sha halos na pinapagawa sa subject nya!
haha.. tama. ngayon magreklamo sa grade6 teacher.. nice one..
haha..
yan.. naalala ko tuloy ang Holy..
*reminiscing...
lalo na ang cattleya..
ang halu.halong klase ng tao.. ang mga makukulit, ang mga tamad mag.recite, mga masipag mag.recite, ang madadaldal, ang mga tahimik, ang mga prank.callers, ang mga hartrab, ang mga nasa honor roll, ang mga obit, ang mga 100%kikay, ang mga late.comers, mga early birds, ang mga pranka, iba.iba pa..
pero since pinagsama.sama kami.. ang lupit!
haha..
naalala ko yung quarterly reporting sa Hekasi.. ang tindi talaga ni mrs. estrella.. pamatay magtanong.. ang lalalim.. pero ok lang.
tapos si Gam.. pati si Kristine.. ang mga impersonators.. pag lunch break, kahit bawal magstay sa room, nandun kami, may daily laughing sessions kami dun.. haha..
tapos pag lunch na, lagi kaming may 'picnic' sa room ang bawat pagkaing dalahin mo sa skul.. food for sharing na yan! haha..
tapos sila Gam ulit.. ang mga nambblock ng door para 'magdonate' ang mga dadaan para sa 'charity'.. at hindi optional yun. hahah... labo.. but i once got away from it.. nakalimutan nilang ilock yung isa pang door. :D
at nag 'cheer dance' kami nung school fair that year! haha.. wala lang.. '..catt-le-yahhh...'
tapos si 'ate bebes'.. si Eji.. mga pinaka.naging ka.close ko that year.. na kahit first time ko silang maka.klase, ok kaagad..
si joan.. si sheoan.. haaaaayyyy... langgam.. nalala ko pa yung rose.. tapos yung taxi ride.. tapos nung tinulungan ko si Uyvico with Che.. givin up one's happiness for the other.. i learned that from sheoan. salamat sa yo.
tapos si dar.. shempre! oi! pareh! bespren! wala lang.. salamat ulit ng marami..
tapos ako daw yung 'younger versioon ni d.y... haha.. lol ka talaga Gam.. ang mga naiisip mo.. kabaliwan.. haha.. kasi naabot ko one time yung mataas na pitch na binigay niya sa class or somethin.. haha.. weh gam! kaw si ester and the other ester.. haha.. sorry po.. patawarin ang bata..
tapos si Isay.. belated, ka.bertday!
tapos di ko rin malilimutan yung mga scratch papers na nakita ko sa bag ko one day.. mga scratch ng finorge na excuse letterS.. haha.. ng baliw nun.. pero nagawa na eh, sori na lang.. d ko naman po uulitin ever again, eh!
and the rest of cattleya.. di na ko makapagtype nang maayos.. nawawalan na ko ng energy.. dinner.. eat.. dinner.. then.. medicine.. but.. need.. dude.. more.. haha..:D

oh alma mater kind and dear

we sing your praises

far and near

at home, at school, on land, and sea

the thought of you is dear to me

*so dear to us is the HSS

with love our hearts enfold her

stand, stand for the HSS for truth in love,

stand, stand for the HSS, for truth in love.*

someday, when far from you

we roam

our hearts will surely travel home

and mem'ries sweet and dear to me

those dear old days that used to be

parang bano..

pero ok lang..

mahal ko ang Holy Mamau.. err.. HOLY SPIRIT! forever thankful..

haha.. pwede pa rin naman daw ako sa chocolates!! yehey!! woohoo!!
haha.. wala lang ulit.. cute ulit ang sky.

ailabshoi.

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-+reish.091104