dihnam<-

hug niyo naman ako.

please? haha..

i feel like a total bum

namamanhid na lang ako

d ko na alam ang mga dapat gawin

i feel like drowning

and the same time, dying, suffocating, losing, fading away..

ewan.

sa sobrang gulo,

di ko na lang pinapansin.

at nagpapakamanhid ako sa sakit, sa mga ka.ewanan ng mundong tinatawag kong akin.

pero

ewan.

naklimutan ko na yung sasabihin ko.

haha.

joke lang.

ang dami nga palang typo dito..

mga kulang na letra, o kaya naman sobra, o kaya naman nagkabaliktad ng pwesto..

basta, typo..

yun na.

haha..

ang gulo ko talag.

ang labo..

ayoko na..

that's what i always tell myself.

pero sa totoo,

i'll never give up.

ako si rei, remember?

haha..

but still..

yun ang lagi kong sinasabi.. "AYOKO NA."

but here i am.. doing the crazy things that i do just to feel that im alive..

but sooner or later, i'll die..

then go to hell..

though i don't want to go there..

pero naffeel kong dun ako..

haha..

because i am evil..

but right now,

sa sobrang kamandiran..

it seems like i really just don't care at all.

ayoko na..

but i'm still here.

ok lang..

malabo. magulo.

tutal manhid naman na ako. wala na kong mararamdaman pa. wala na.

pilit. sobra.

i just want to scream.

collapse then feel not a single drop of pain.

but that seems like impossible. unattainable.

but who the heck cares?

i don't think i do.

masakit.

magulo.

at dahil nasosobrahan na yata ako, manhid na.

haha..

siguro nga exaggerated yun.. pero.. ewan.

carefree lang siguro ako kahit kelan.

at bangag.

kahit ano man ang mangyari..

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chocoholic pa rin ako.

i'll still punch the walls and paint them with my gore.

i'll color everything red and black till all this pain is camouflaged.. (pede yun?)

they'd be invisible.. and this dimension of the fallen will be invincible..

and i'll always be jailed by pain and darkness, but i wouldn't care..

drown me, go on.. i'll die.. but nothing would matter..

all these..

they have made me numb.

no more tears (shaks parang baby shampoo)

no more lies

..hallucination stops here.

and the music starts to play again..

choking me with every line..

every single sound..

evey note, every strand of love..

is there anybody who can save me?

rarrr..

ps: hug ko??

rarrr..

-+rei.113004.