after two years

My life is brilliant.

My love is pure.

I saw an angel.

Of that I'm sure.

My life wasn't exactly brilliant before you came along. But in a nutshell, you saved me from insanity. Just when I was on the verge of breaking down, giving up and all that, there was you ~ poking my back while I am in line for lunch, or appearing out of nowhere to sit with me at the library, or cracking jokes, or telling stories of different topics while waving your hands or something, and just being there, giving me something incomparable to anything else.

She smiled at me on the subway.

She was with another man.

But I won't lose no sleep on that,

'Cause I've got a plan.

And you were the first being who taught me how to control jealousy. And how to test the self big time.

You're beautiful.

You're beautiful.

You're beautiful, it's true.

I saw you face in a crowded place,

And I don't know what to do,

'Cause I'll never be with you.

But then again, I was always in this beautiful nightmare. The utopia of all that I ever dreamed of was to fall the moment I wake up, and I can never go back. All was perfect, all was good. But all had to end.
Do I have my faith to blame?

Yeah, she caught my eye,

As we walked on by.

She could see from my face that I was,

Fucking high,

And I don't think that I'll see her again,

But we shared a moment that will last till the end.

But mortals can't live in heaven forever.

You're beautiful.

You're beautiful.

You're beautiful, it's true.

I saw you face in a crowded place,

And I don't know what to do,

'Cause I'll never be with you.

I have always thought of what-if's and could-have-been's, only to look for the possibility of forever's existence. But hard as it has always been, there was nothing to find. And there was nothing to keep but memories.

You're beautiful.

You're beautiful.

You're beautiful, it's true.

There must be an angel with a smile on her face,

When she thought up that I should be with you.

But it's time to face the truth,

I will never be with you.

After two years of forgetting and trying, here I am saying that I miss you.
But I have decided to take half a step forward.

Maybe there isn't always hope.

R01oct06.

(ngek, na-inspire ba ako ni mr jodel at napagawa ako ng entry? deh, eksakto lang sa timing ng senti mode. [haha.. defensive.])