**********d.

i really feel so crappy lately..

*haha.. is that what this blog is for?*

everything's been questionable and blurred for me lately.

i'm questioning a lot about my religion..

about things that i feel..

things that i do and need to do..

everything's weird.

yet,, i continue walking along this road.

it's a biased world. it's a stand alone system. even if there are those who will stand beside you no matter what,, there will always be inevitable battles that are too personal, and no matter how others struggle to for you, you'll have to battle some things out alone.

all alone.

i wish to understand more.

i don't want to try hiding myself again. i don't want to.. i can't.

i need to earn my own defences. i simply can't continue walking along this road all bare and weak.

*am i making things sound serious..? :P*

'...suffocated i am.. **********d.. i am dying, i am dead.. i am alive, i'm so alive.. swear i knew it all along.. and i am pained, but i'm healing up so well...'

-+ rei.082304.